the generation of lost love
as beautiful and wonderful
as we all know it is...
...sometimes,
love is really quite confusing.
my sister quoted her friend
who said,
"we are the generation of lost love"...
and i'd have to agree with this.
so many people
seem confused by it...
in and out
of relationships
all the time...
my parents generation too,
same thing...
so we didn't get the best role models.
...as for myself,
as soon as i think
that i understand something about love...
i get confused again.
is it really so simple?
then,
why is it so hard to find?
...they say,
"love is everywhere."
that's a nice, abstract thought...
but i can't really feel it.
not gonna lie.
i mean,
i've had feelings of universal love before...
but it doesn't last.
...so when you do find love...
why is it so elusive?
how can you like someone
so much...
but within a matter of different circumstances,
no longer have the same feelings?
...what about crushes...
when you like someone so much
that you get obsessed with them...?
is this love?
i think it's something else...
and it can blind you.
badly.
...what about unrequited love?
how is it that one person
can be so into someone else...
but the feeling is not returned?
can you explain this phenomenon?
really...
think about it.
Person A is seeking something
that Person B embodies...
but not vice versa...
maybe?
why does love seem so unjust sometimes?
or is it always just?
tough world, huh?
...how about family?
what about the confounding
inexplicable
incredibly complex concept
of parental love?
whoa...
(let's not get started.)
how about siblings
who can be so close,
only to turn their backs
on each other,
and then later
forgive each other again?
how about friendship...
the fleeting
fluid
morphing nature of it?
...how about marriage
and then divorce?
how about marriage
and dissatisfaction?
...how about relationships
and abuse?
what about when you get so angry
and hurt someone
and then apologize
and say,
"i love you"...
"i didnt mean it..."
"please forgive me..."
and then
when they piss you off
you get angry
all over again.
...what about that feeling
of *knowing* someone
deeply...
only later to realize
you really don't?
...people change...
feelings change...
i guess that's the only thing
you can count on.
but can such radical emotional changes
be explained?
if people were that honest
with each other...
it would probably hurt a lot.
so many questions...
...you know,
there are big mysteries
in the world.
i mean
really big,
cosmic mysteries...
like,
why am i here?
what's my purpose?
what's the meaning of life?
and
another good one is...
does true love exist?
but...
...wanna know my biggest mystery?
why
why...
...why...
did he fall out of love
with me?
or...
was he even in love with me
to begin with?
and...
was i actually in love
with him?
i wonder if i'll ever understand it...
...but
i'm sure
i'm not alone
in my confusion.
as we all know it is...
...sometimes,
love is really quite confusing.
my sister quoted her friend
who said,
"we are the generation of lost love"...
and i'd have to agree with this.
so many people
seem confused by it...
in and out
of relationships
all the time...
my parents generation too,
same thing...
so we didn't get the best role models.
...as for myself,
as soon as i think
that i understand something about love...
i get confused again.
is it really so simple?
then,
why is it so hard to find?
...they say,
"love is everywhere."
that's a nice, abstract thought...
but i can't really feel it.
not gonna lie.
i mean,
i've had feelings of universal love before...
but it doesn't last.
...so when you do find love...
why is it so elusive?
how can you like someone
so much...
but within a matter of different circumstances,
no longer have the same feelings?
...what about crushes...
when you like someone so much
that you get obsessed with them...?
is this love?
i think it's something else...
and it can blind you.
badly.
...what about unrequited love?
how is it that one person
can be so into someone else...
but the feeling is not returned?
can you explain this phenomenon?
really...
think about it.
Person A is seeking something
that Person B embodies...
but not vice versa...
maybe?
why does love seem so unjust sometimes?
or is it always just?
tough world, huh?
...how about family?
what about the confounding
inexplicable
incredibly complex concept
of parental love?
whoa...
(let's not get started.)
how about siblings
who can be so close,
only to turn their backs
on each other,
and then later
forgive each other again?
how about friendship...
the fleeting
fluid
morphing nature of it?
...how about marriage
and then divorce?
how about marriage
and dissatisfaction?
...how about relationships
and abuse?
what about when you get so angry
and hurt someone
and then apologize
and say,
"i love you"...
"i didnt mean it..."
"please forgive me..."
and then
when they piss you off
you get angry
all over again.
...what about that feeling
of *knowing* someone
deeply...
only later to realize
you really don't?
...people change...
feelings change...
i guess that's the only thing
you can count on.
but can such radical emotional changes
be explained?
if people were that honest
with each other...
it would probably hurt a lot.
so many questions...
...you know,
there are big mysteries
in the world.
i mean
really big,
cosmic mysteries...
like,
why am i here?
what's my purpose?
what's the meaning of life?
and
another good one is...
does true love exist?
but...
...wanna know my biggest mystery?
why
why...
...why...
did he fall out of love
with me?
or...
was he even in love with me
to begin with?
and...
was i actually in love
with him?
i wonder if i'll ever understand it...
...but
i'm sure
i'm not alone
in my confusion.